fcuk mahn. u think i wann look happy everyday ?! u think i AM happy. i AM NOT OKAY !? u think everyday being forced to put on a happy face very fun ?! no one noes wads deep in me. no one ever understands me. not even my closest frens. not even my family. no one. an incident yesterday allowed me to realise. when ur in need. ur frens dun even give a DAMN. ask for help. they just ASK U TO SCRAM. play maple. play cs. now i noe these games are more important den me. its been DUMB of me to keep thinking dat they will change. i am wrong. and some even worse. ask them. DUN REPLY. fine. some. talk halfway. heard dat i need help. just DAO ME. dun bother to reply. selfish creatures. fcuk off. i dun nidd yall. at least. AMABEL. the girl yall make fun off. at least SHE BOTHERED TO HELP ME. so wad if she doesnt look nice in her appearance. AT LEAST IN HER HEART. SHE IS KIND. HELPFUL. so wad if u ppl are nice looking. A BUNCH OF USELESS PEOPLE. i feel so helpless. so devastated. if someday i were to be suffering from some incurable diseases. i dun think anyone will bother.